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at-last! everything is clear…now i know…all the questions in my mind are all answered and now i should stop thinking…And i can say that i can do my daily routine without  feeling the wave of pain,  anger, confusion, low self-esteem, and maybe even jealousy. before, its so hard for me…i really suffered but now i realized that i should not put my self in one thing.its enough!! and i should always think about whats good about me, i should take good care of my self, do the things i normally enjoy,love and give my self a time..

One of the reasons why i get so sentimental, it’s because memories are the things that don’t change. When everything else does there are things in life that you can’t hold on forever, no matter how much you fight for it. Sometimes destiny isn’t always good, it becomes playful. When you met someone you learned to love, you thought that it was destiny that made your path cross. But what if making your path cross is just a part of the game that the playful destiny creates? Making you realize in the end that the person you thought that was destined for you wasn’t really meant to stay. But only destined to make you feel love and leave you when you’re already fallen.

Letting go is not easy to do. Pretending to be strong and pretending that everything is alright is like killing your self inside that makes you feel worthless. I thought that if you really love someone your love for him/ for her has no limitation and you need to accept what he/ she is. I realized that you can never own something that was never yours so let’s stop gripping on things we expect to last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Forever is a lie, everything is transitory.

So while you have something in your hand put in mind that it’s just borrowed. So that someday when it’s gone, it wants take you eternity just to let it go. When your feelings get strong for someone, it’s always wise to stop for awhile a take a deep breath. A time to use your mind to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion. because the saddest thing that can happen is when one fall in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship.." love can sometimes be magic, but magic can sometimes be an illusion" there are times when I wish that I was limited to certain emotions so that I’ll never have to experience pain, never feel betrayed or disappointed, and never get my fragile heartbroken.

But the same things mean that I’ll never know how it feels to love and be loved in return. The thought of it kind of scares me… to have a heart that’s whole but numb or a heart that’s broken but real…someday we’ll all be looking back to those days we learned to love, get hurt, cry and fight. Maybe when the time comes, well be laughing to our old dumb selves, realizing how stupid we were to stand up for things we knew weren’t really meant for us. But I guess learning takes time and mistakes makes ones journey fun. Life is what we make it; love makes the world go round. So let’s live, love, and take whatever pain it brings. Though it’s hard to wait around for something that I know will never happen, it’s harder to stop when I knew its everything I’ve always wanted…